Poetry
Why are you back?
Why are you bringing so much pain?
You are so malignant
You are forceful
You are fearful
You are deadly
I am in a nothing place
Hardly able to speak
Hardly able to listen to the radio
Do you realise how much you hurt
If you do why don’t you vanish?
Why do you push me to despair?
I am waiting for a better time
When? I don’t know
You will decide no doubt
When you decide to leave me
Leave me in a time of recovery
How long? Have you planned when?
I wanted away from me NOW
I know you will not be so kind
I find myself in a total silence
The silence of high anxiety
The silence of more depression
I cannot even write in anger
I cannot breathe at time
It feels like a hard, large stone
Right in the middle of my body
It is stuck there
A very heavy pain and prison
Yes I am in prison
There is no way out
I am fully locked in my own self
Feeling myself in painful stoicism
A place of total silence
A place of strong invisible pain
I look like anybody else
I don’t feel like ‘them’
I feel as not able to move
Not able to hear, not able to do, to be
I just feel nothing
Silence is a lesson learned through life’s many sufferings
(Catherine Williams ‘A Day of nothing’- Friday 14th August 2020)
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Beautiful poem. Very relatable and brilliant metaphor.